“Mommy I love you.”
Those were the final words 4-year-old Nolan Scully told his mom when his battle reached its end. He talked about his impending death with unshakable faith, telling his mom he’d just wait in Heaven for her.
Just after little Nolan’s battle with cancer ended in February 2017, his mother Ruth posted a tribute to her son on the Nolan Strong fan page, so that all of us who did not know him would get a chance to know how much love, and life, is possible—no matter how little time you have been given. Since then, it’s garnered over hundreds of thousands of follower.
“Two months,” Ruth wrote. “Two months since I’ve held you in my arms, heard how much you loved me, kissed those sweetie ‘pie’ lips. Two months since we’ve snuggled. … I’ve wanted for a long time to write a little about Nolan’s last days. His last few days shined with how amazing my son is. How beautiful he is. How he was made of nothing but pure love.”
Nolan was just 3 years old when he was diagnosed with rhabdomyosarcoma after originally having trouble breathing from what the family thought was just a stuffy nose.
Ruth learned that they were out of options after months of chemotherapy, radiation, and fighting. She said there were “large tumors that grew, compressing his bronchial tubes and heart.” The cancer was “spreading like wild fire” and Nolan’s oncologist explained that at this point it was untreatable.
Ruth gathered the courage to go tell Nolan. But his reaction showed the strong faith this little boy had.
Me: Poot, it hurts to breathe doesn’t it?
Nolan: Weeeelll…. yeah.
Me: You’re in a lot of pain aren’t you baby?
Nolan: (looking down) Yeah.
Me: Poot, this cancer stuff sucks. You don’t have to fight anymore.
Nolan: (Pure Happiness) I DONT??!! But I will for you Mommy!!
Me: No Poot!! Is that what you have been doing?? Fighting for Mommy??
Nolan: Well DUH!!
Me: Nolan Ray, what is Mommy’s job?
Nolan: To keep me SAFE! (With a big grin)
Me: Honey … I can’t do that anymore here. The only way I can keep you safe is in Heaven. (My heart shattering)
Nolan: Sooooo I’ll just go to Heaven and play until you get there! You’ll come right?
Me: Absolutely!! You can’t get rid of Mommy that easy!!
Nolan: Thank you Mommy!!! I’ll go play with Hunter and Brylee and Henry!!”
Nolan and his family spent the next few days enjoying the time they had left.
“We laid in bed together and he sketched out how he wanted his funeral, picked his pall bearers, what he wanted people to wear, wrote down what he was leaving each of us, and even wrote down what he wanted to be remembered as… which of course was a Policeman.”
On his last day of life, she left his side only for a moment to shower. No sooner than the bathroom door clicked, “he shut his eyes and went into a deep sleep, beginning the end of life passing.”
When Ruth came out of the shower, doctors said he had slipped off into a coma, his lung had collapsed and his oxygen levels dropped.
She describes the last moment of his life:
“I ran and jumped into bed with him and put my hand on the right side of his face. Then a miracle that I will never forget happened….”
“My angel took a breath, opened his eyes, smiled at me and said “I Love You Mommy,” turned his head toward me and at 11:54 p.m. Sgt. Rollin Nolan Scully passed away as I was singing “You are My Sunshine” in his ear.”
“My son was terrified to leave my side, even as I showered,” Ruth said. “Now I’m the one terrified to shower. With nothing but an empty shower rug now where once a beautiful perfect little boy laid waiting for his Mommy.”
Thousands of strangers came out to offer condolences.
“He made unbelievers believe. He brought the community together in such positive way,” Diana Rogers, Nolan’s grandmother told the crowd.